Anxiety

solid, present real
a boulder of "feeling"?
more a massive silent wall
i press against it
it presses back

crystallized it stands
the only way sealed
? by my thoughts
? by my emotions
the presence rails
"How dare you?"

I am silent perhaps lost
a conundrum, a knot, a puzzle
no - none of the above
my instincts abraded
my mind a visitor

observe, listen, shatter
but what will shatter
me, the presence, the wall between
and from where come such deep roots